Love: The Disease

I look at you and my heart sets ablaze
It seems like years when its been days
I was wandering and it's been awhile
Since I've seen your lovely smile

Your beautiful eyes look back at me
Your lips they speak, lies and misery
I'm choking and I don't know what to say
I'm in love with this joyful disarray

I'm hopeful and vulnerable at the same time
I'm crushed and wounded but I feel fine
Happy and sad.  My heart is aching but I'm glad
Day dreams sublime but at night I don't sleep, it's bad

My conditon is undefined, call it what you will
What I need most seems to be whats killing me
Boiling red shots of emotion are filling me
I can't explain these many things that I feel